Dear Mom…


Sometimes I just stop and wonder where I’d be without my mom. I think about what kind of woman I’d be today if I didn’t have her in my life. Once I come up with a few possible outcomes, I instantly start praising God for the woman of strength, wisdom, grit, and love that is my momma. Geeeessh! I would be SO MESSED UP without her, let’s be real. Haha! Unfortunately, there are some people that do grow up without a mother. And if that is you, I’m truly sorry. I can’t imagine how that must have been. However, I do know that there is always some sort of strong woman in everyone’s life that takes the role of a mother. And today, we honor those women – the women who inspire us daily, who take care of us selflessly, and who encourage us effortlessly. Today, I get the honor and privilege of introducing to you my mom!

My mom is the epitome of the Proverbs 31 woman. Btw, If you haven’t read my thoughts about the Proverbs 31 woman, go check out that blog post (shameless self promo)! She has fire in her soul, grace in heart, and a faith so great in God that nothing and no one can stop her. I think that is one of the things I admire the most about her – her relentless pursuit after God’s heart. She has taught us since the beginning that in everything we do, we must do unto the Glory of God. She taught us that no matter what we do, make God the center. The way she taught us was by doing it herself. She lived out what she encouraged us to do, which inevitably inspired us to follow. She encouraged us to go out and make mistakes so we can find God ourselves. She always told us that she couldn’t believe for us, no matter how badly she wanted to at times. She is a woman of so much faith and she always lets God take control. She lives her life for God and she inspires us to emulate that and do the same. It’s truly remarkable. She is a true inspiration.

My mom and I didn’t always have the best relationship. If I’m being honest, we had a horrible relationship… haha! I ain’t about to try and sugar-coat it for y’all. Like I always say, details are details and we don’t need to know all of them right now cause then this post will be extremely long. But trust me when I say our relationship was one fight away from me running away and never looking back. Literally. It wasn’t pretty. But now, by the grace of God, I can honestly say that my mom is my best friend. I love having deep conversations with her; those kind of “give and take” conversations where we toss around ideas, share perspectives, and contemplate the important things. When I need wisdom, she never fails to provide it. When I need a little extra love and encouragement, she gives it effortlessly. Even when I need a good laugh, her weird and quirky actions make it impossible not to. We have fun, I gotta admit! She’s such a dork sometimes! Haha!

Writing all this out, I can’t help but go back to my original question. Where would we be without our mothers? I want to take a moment to speak to all the moms out there. You are INCREDIBLE. I’ve done my fair share of “mom mode” now that Emet (my 3 year old brother) is in my life and luckily for me, as of right now, that’s all it is – a mode. Which means, I can choose when to turn that mode on and off. To be able to live so selflessly for your family is a true characteristic of the modern day hero. Having Emet around, it really opened my eyes to everything a mom deals with on the daily basis. Sometimes, we so easily take advantage of our mother and forget about everything they put aside so that we, as their children, can succeed. Even when she is struggling with something, a mom never appears as shattered or broken because of the amount of strength needed to hold a family together. Instead, she puts herself aside and uses those hurts and bruises as wings to help her family soar higher and higher. They are a beautiful masterpiece of chaotic harmony because of the amount of things they juggle. They do such a great job of holding everything together. Taking care of my own life is hard enough, I can’t even comprehend how a mom does it. My mom has to take care of not only herself, but take care of her 5 children (6 including my Dad… HAHA JK POPS I LOVE YOU), her parents, and ALL the people she leads as a pastor and a coach and mentor. CRAZY. If that’s not a super power, I don’t know what is. I think it is so beautiful how a mother shows her brokenness as a sign of beauty and strength and her selflessness as signs of invincibility. Like I said early, mothers are INCREDIBLE.

One day, I aspire to be at least half as amazing as this beautiful woman right here. I want to have my own family one day but I’m realizing that the role of being a mother is something I’m definitely not ready for. HA. Far from it, honey bunny. But I know that if I continue to grow myself and emulate this lovely lady, I’ll be ready to become a hero to my future little baby human nuggets one day! HAHA! Yes, you read that right. BABY. HUMAN. NUGGETS. So cute! Baby fever is REAL homies.

Now a little note from me to you, Mommasita!

Dear Momma,

I love you so so much. Thank you for letting me grow my own pair of warrior wings and for letting me fly, for catching me when I fall, and for helping me back up when I feel broken. But not only that, for believing I’ll be able to fly again and again and again, especially in those times that I didn’t believe in myself. Thank you for instilling in us a heart of worship at such a young age and for creating such a strong foundation from the start. Thank you for being vulnerable and transparent with us so that we can learn what to do and what not do, especially as minsters and as leaders. Last but not least, thanks for not giving up on our relationship. I know we started off rocky, but it was all worth it because of what our relationship looks like now. I wish I could give you so much more than flowers and a blog post, but I know that one day, I’ll be able to show you the kind of impact you’ve made in my life. How? By carrying on the legacy you are leaving for us for my future family and by showing you (through my actions) everything you were able to instill into us, which I know will be much more rewarding than any materialistic thing we can buy you.  I hope and pray God blesses you SO MUCH this year! I love you!


Misha (a.k.a – your favorite 2nd born daughter… Hehehe)

*Cue awkward conclusion paragraph*

WHELP! There you freakin’ have it folks. If you couldn’t tell, I love my mom so much! And I admire the role of a mother immensely! If you’re reading this and you’re a mom, THANK YOU FOR ALL THAT YOU DO! I hope you all enjoyed this post and I want to encourage you to take some time to really tell your mom how much you love and appreciate her. She deserves to know! But not just because it’s Mother’s Day. We should honor them every single day because of the daily sacrifices they make for us. I know, I am probably preaching to the choir here! Lol! So if you agree with me, can I get an AMEN!? Lol! mmmmhmm!

Oh also, feel free to share this post with your mom or anyone you know! Pass on the aloha to mommas everywhere!

Oh oh alsoooo! I added a new feature to the blog! You can now like posts and comments. The like button for a post is located at the bottom left side of the post! Please feel free to “like” it just so I know how many people read it! Thanks guys!

Oh oh OHHHH…also! I hope you have an amazing day with your mom and I pray blessings over her! But not only that, I hope and pray YOU have a blessed week as well!

Like always, thanks for reading! Until next time, love bug!



  1. LilTurtle
    May 13, 2018 / 8:25 pm

    Amen! Hehe 🙂 I think being a mom is one of the greatest, but underappreciated and unacknowledged, jobs there is out there. From my experience as a caregiver to my grandmother, I often thought of my role being similar to a mom (and often found myself being able to relate to mommas more than other peers my age sometimes). I remember from when I met your mom that she has such a heart for people, Misha, and I can totally see how that got passed down to her children as well. <3

    Your post on "filters" and how we as people have a tendency to put on a mask when we interact with others has really inspired me to try and be more real (even if that means feeling vulnerable sometimes). It's not that I act "fake" like in a manipulating kind of way or anything like that, but recently I've been finding that little voice in my head shutting my ideas down when I think I should be reaching out to others. Like if I'm feeling down, that little voice would tell me that I shouldn't text and let a friend know what's going on in my life because "I'm just being a bother" or "I'm just gonna drag down their day too". But I'm realizing now that it's okay to just be real, even on those bad days, and it's okay to be honest when I'm feeling those more "negative" feelings. God gives us encouragement through the fellowship we have with other believers, and it's okay to share about struggles and the bad days because those friends that He puts around us will be there to help. I've been trying to take it one day at a time though (which helped me get through the rest of the school year – Yay, finals week is over!).

    Could you keep me and my family in prayer this week? My grandmother actually passed away pretty suddenly last month (which has really changed my life at home and in general, since she had lived with us for over a decade) and we're having her funeral this week. She was my mom's mom, and this is the first Mother's Day without her, but we know that she's with Jesus now though, which is a blessing.
    Thank you for all that you are doing through this blog, Misha, it's really making a difference in my life! <3 ~L

    • mishakanani
      May 15, 2018 / 12:54 am

      AMEN GIRL! Omg thanks for sharing!!! That is great revelation and I’m glad that that post was able to help you in some way! Omg that’s huge and I’m so proud of you girl!! Keep growing and keep finding Jesus!! That’s incredible! Haha!

      Yes, I will definitely keep your family in prayer this week!!. I’m so so soooo sorry for your loss girl. 🙁 I’m glad you have a positive outlook on it and I’m Proud if you for that, but yeah, I know it must be very difficult still. Stay strong sis! I pray that y’all find God’s peace and feel His unconditional love this week. <33

      I’m so glad you told me that girl; that this blog is making a difference in your life. That’s probably the most rewarding thing in the world knowing that I’m helping someone. Thank you so much for your endless amounts of support!

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